Fear, Fullness, and Underwear

I never understood the advice on public speaking about imagining your audience in their underwear.  Maybe it’s because I don’t multitask well but I can’t imagine talking about God’s mercy while also trying to focus on an array of undergarments. Besides, it’s just creepy. While the intent may be to make the speaker more comfortable, I can’t think of anything more uncomfortable than a room full of people wearing only bras and briefs.

I considered the absurdity of that advice while trying to identify what would make me most nervous about public speaking.  I figured if I addressed any unease, I would be better prepared. I wasn’t overly concerned about a word stumble and since I fell on my face in Kindergarten, I figured I had gotten that out of the way.  What I realized made me the most nervous was that I would hurry through, wish the moment away, and just get it done. The worst thing that could happen would be that I would miss my own talk by not embracing every moment with my fully clothed audience.  It is a gift to speak about mercy.  I wanted to be present. I wanted to experience the joy of it.

It made me realize how often in life I have shrunk from the fullness that God created.   I have held back.  Blended in.  Been too careful.  Too many times, I have listened to fear over the only one who can deliver me from it.  “The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer,” (Psalm 18:2).  I’ve always had a relationship with fear.  Maybe on some level, I thought if I kept it close, it would keep me safe.  But fear doesn’t keep us safe, it keeps us small.  It keeps us living in the shadows when God has called us into his light.  By trading fear for trust in God we can live in the freedom of his truth.  “In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety,” (Psalm 4:8).  With God, we don’t need to be afraid.  He is strong enough to carry us through our suffering and merciful enough to heal our hurts.  Having a relationship with him doesn’t mean that bad things won’t happen.  It doesn’t mean that we won’t fall on our face or some creepy person won’t picture us in our underwear.  It just means that with him, through him, fear is a farce of the devil’s making.  We don’t need strategies and sayings to make us courageous.  We simply need to trust that God has us in the right place to carry out his plan in our lives.

The night I did my talk, I wasn’t perfect but I was fully present and that made it perfect for me.  I felt the joy of the Holy Spirit, the intensity of God’s love among the other women, and the gratitude for the chance to spread his word.  I felt the fullness that God created me for — stripped of euphemisms and clothed in his goodness.

Is fear keeping you from the fullness God created you for? I was talking to someone this past week about how the devil is behind so much of our fear.  I think when we think of fear that way, it’s easier to let it go. After all, the devil is even more creepy than a room full of people in their underwear!

Read last week’s post: You’ve Come a Long Way Baby

7 thoughts on “Fear, Fullness, and Underwear

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  • October 15, 2019 at 5:10 pm

    Lara, what a wonderful post. I am of the same sentiment with regard to visualizing the audience. You struck a cord relating it all to God’s mercy and living in the present. Thanks for such a thoughtful piece.

    • October 28, 2019 at 12:21 am

      Thank you, Paula. Sometimes present-moment living can feel harder to do than even the audience in its underwear! But truly, I believe we are happier when we do it.

  • October 15, 2019 at 12:31 pm

    The devil is behind our fear – whenever I can grasp that, it helps me to work through that fear & let God get back in the drivers seat. Thank you for the reminder.

    • October 28, 2019 at 12:10 am

      Me too, Sharon! I used to never think much about the devil and it wasn’t ignorance is bliss – it was just me missing out on the way he tries to constantly manipulate all of us. It’s empowering to me now that when I feel weak and uncertain that I know the devil is near and I make an effort to draw closer to the Lord.

  • October 15, 2019 at 11:50 am

    Love this one, Lara! I am an introvert and am constantly dealing with that little river of fear that keeps me stuck in my comfort zone back here in my beautiful little hole. Thank you for the encouragement?

    • October 28, 2019 at 12:08 am

      Kitty- I’ve struggled with the same. And sometimes “feeling safe” can be easy to confuse with what we think is the right thing for us. That’s why it’s so important to make sure we leave space open to know and listen to God’s call. The work you do is such an encouragement of that.

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